Wild Heather: December 2012

Friday, 14 December 2012

Ace's first night in his own room....

Ok, so I am the first to admit I am tearing up as I type this.

Tonight, for the first time in 4 months, Shawn and I went to bed without having to tiptoe past the bassinette at the end of our bed.... Our Ace had gone to bed, for the first time, in his big cot, in his own room. (He has gotten too big for his bassinette and kept waking him self up when his arms hit the sides in his sleep and we couldn't fit his big cot in our bedroom)

As I lay down to sleep there was a huge sense of emptiness in our room, it was horrible. Ace was only on the other side of our bed room wall, but I felt so vulnerable without him in my sight.

Ace on the other hand was relishing his new found space and went to sleep happily- arms spread out like a star fish :D.

it's a bit blurry but it was taken in the dark with a flash

When he woke, for his 12.30am feed, I must have heard him the instant he cried because, by the time I woke up properly I was sitting in my lazy boy chair in his nursery with him happily chowing down on his midnight feast. I can't remember getting up!

Funny, since I had tossed and turned earlier trying to put all the fears to rest.

"what happens if he wakes and I dont hear him and he gets scared in his new room?"

'What if his arm gets stuck in the slats of his cot?"

"what if he's cold and I don't know?"

"What if his quilt comes lose and he kicks it onto his face and suffocates?"

I am surprised I have slept at all. (Shawn came up with the great idea of using a safety pin to secure the cot quilt to the mattress at the right level, so I felt better about that.)

He has had his feed now and has drifted blissfully back to starfish sleep in his new big bed....

I, however, have felt the need to spend precious sleep time debriefing via this blog.... phew.... this being a mum thing is full on... it's like someone cut out my heart and put it to sleep in the next room.

Just a side note, for those who are interested, this whole scenario hasn't bothered Shawn at all - he was asleep as his head hit the pillow and he hasn't stirred at all since!! thank goodness we are not BOTH worryworts!